!! ** Autobiography of a Yogi ** !!

On 2006-07-06 10:26, *Karma Cola* wrote:
I found this on a website and it was a nice read. Wanted to share it with all of you. Here goes...


"A young American named Simon Moon, studying Zen in the Zendo (Zen school) at the New Old Lompoc House in Lompoc, California, made the mistake of reading Franz Kafka's The Trial. This sinister novel, combined with Zen training, proved too much for poor Simon. He became obsessed, intellectually and emotionally, with the strange parable about the door of the Law which Kafka inserts near the end of his story. Simon found Kafka's fable so disturbing, indeed, that it ruined his meditations, scattered his wits, and distracted him from his study of the Sutras.

Somewhat condensed, Kafka's parable goes as follows:
A man comes to the door of the Law, seeking admittance. The guard refuses to allow him to pass the door, but says that if he waits long enough, maybe, someday in the uncertain future, he might gain admittance. The man waits and waits and grows older; he tries to bribe the guard, who takes his money but still refuses to let him through the door; the man sells all his possessions to get money to offer more bribes, which the guard accepts -- but still does not allow him to enter. The guard always explains, on taking each new bribe, "I only do this so that you will not abandon hope entirely."
Eventually, the man becomes old and ill, and knows that he will soon die. In his last few moments he summons the energy to ask a question that has puzzled him over the years. "I have been told," he says to the guard, "that the Law exists for all. Why the does it happen that, in all the years I have sat here waiting, nobody else has ever come to the door of the Law?"
"This door," the guard says, "has been made only for you. And now I am going to close it forever." And he slams the door as the man dies.

The more Simon brooded on this allegory, or joke, or puzzle, the more he felt that he could never understand Zen until he first understood this strange tale. If the door existed only for that man, why could he not enter? If the builders posted a guard to keep the man out, why did they also leave the door temptingly open? Why did the guard close the previously open door, when the man had become too old to attempt to rush past him and enter? Did the Buddhist doctrine of dharma (law) have anything in common with this parable?
Did the door of the Law represent the Byzantine bureaucracy that exists in virtually every modern government, making the whole story a political satire, such as a minor bureaucrat like Kafka might have devised in his subversive off-duty hours? Or did the Law represent God, as some commentators claim, and, in that case, did Kafka intend to parody religion or to defend its devine Mystery obliquely? Did the guard who took bribes but gave nothing but empty hope in return represent the clergy, or the human intellect in general, always feasting on shadows in the absence of real Final Answers?
Eventually, near breakdown from sheer mental fatigue, Simon went to his roshi (Zen teacher) and told Kafka's story of the man who waited at the door of the Law -- the door that existed only for him but would not admit him, and was closed when death would no longer allow him to enter.
"Please," Simon begged, "explain this Dark Parable to me."
"I will explain it," the roshi said, "if you will follow me into the meditation hall."
Simon followed the teacher to the door of the meditation hall. When they got there, the teacher stepped inside quickly, turned, and slammed the door in Simon's face.
At that moment, Simon experienced Awakening."




.... What do u think?

Also given the link of the website.. credit is always due
http://www.ganesha.ca/about.htm

On 2006-07-18 12:43, devillicharsi wrote:
a question that is troubling me greatly since lets say 2-3 years.. what is enlightenment?

how do you know when you are enlightened? are you supposed to do things differently when you are enlightened? is that some kind of light that you seek inside when you meditate and when you find it you say you are enlghtened? why would one want to be enlightened? is that god's will that you be enlightened? who is god? who am i?

day in day out i seek an answer for these questions but can't get them!!!!!!!!
it makes me crazy sometimes and it makes me leave this body and wonder aroound just to know what and why and who did all these things.

Lord Krishna in ShriMadBhagwat Geeta says its a cycle that completes every 5000 years...
so for 5000 years you wonder around not knowing what your supposed to do, taking different bodies and when your enlightened you go back to him, is that once and for all or his maya makes you forget everything again and again making you seek the answers again and again!!!

i don't know if it makes sense to you but it makes perfect sense to me.

On 2006-07-19 19:35, Sid/OoRjA wrote:

We have entered a phase where humans will realize their role as co creators and start participating in the evolution of creation.

Love & Light.

On 2006-07-19 14:57, devillicharsi wrote:
the point really is to be a specatator isn't it!!!

or maybe there is no point at all.