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My apologies to everyone..i was totally flipped out!!
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nomoreacidreamz
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Posted : Oct 25, 2010 09:00:20
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My sincere apologies to everyone. Due to some broken childhood probs, I hv been facing mental issue which only gets activated when when I totally lose it. In short I get flippped out. Wotever I wrote was everything false and no more Acid Dreamz exists. Acid Dreamz does not deserve to be here in this peaceful world. He had 81 K loss in the Tryambaka gig which was no ones fault and however some people took advatange of the fact and got him convinced that he was cheated. After that Acid Dreamks (no more that is me totally lost my mind. Now I hav realized it was no ones faulut and it was simple destiny. After losing my mind I threatned many people n wrotre everything false. I deserve worst possible. Already my own guilt feeling is killing me. My biggest apologies to Nischit, Nader, Her#1, mumukshu and many otheres. Infact its to the entire peace loving people. I have gone to police station and gave them a confession letter with my signature. Now I am undergoing mental treatment. Also, its the end of Acid Dreamz, who was totally flipped out without doing any substance. Its not because of any substance but in chilhood I have seen certain things which still haunt me in my dreams. I am under the recovery process. Who ever wants to beat me or do wotever they want, they have the full right because I deserve it. I am already facing the worst possible..Biggest Apology to the mod also. I was so flippd out that I saw my phone sent messages n I cudnt believe that I wrote all that. If possible, please forgive me and pray that I never face that state of mind again in my life...i am myself working my best to kill that daemon who occaionally overtakes my mind...right now I am following the following things told by my mental counsellor:
1. Bath before sleep.
2. NO substances including smoking tobacco.
3. Right down 10 good thought and 10 bad houghts which came in my mind the entire day.
4.Fight the daemon who wants to over take me. If necessary, do internal violence to fight the daemon for the cause of mainting outer Peace.
4.Pray to the creator. Since I dont believe in any particualr God, I just believe only in a creator and thats what my counsellor told that all gods are same but referred by different names by different people.
5. Have a peaceful sleep.
After a month or so, he will tell more what else to do.
Once again, Ill mention everything I wrote was totally fake and I wasnt involved in anything. The names I took of Bangalore people are themselves helping me to come out of this mental trauma. Big respect to such big hearted people and big respect to all peace loving people. I started with Nevin and he is such a big hearted soul that he himself gave me tips how to overcome such evil thoughts
My counsellor told me that we all have a daemon inside ourselfs but its ourself who need to fight the evil. Still if anyone wants to futher ruin me, please go ahead, I deserve it and already going throught the worst possible. People who have fogiven me, please wish that I just overcome tis split personality mental illness. I have been aware of this sicknesss fro many years and it has landed me in trouble in past also. but this time its beyond forgiveness. In case if still people forgive me, they are simply great human beings. Bangalore people, from were it all started have forgived me. Morever, my counsellor is one of the person whom I threatened. They are angels on earth!!! thats all. my phone is switched on and everyone who have still something left inside, please call me n take my personal confession. This mental illness happens to me hardly once in 2-3 yr or so, but now I dont want it at all ever in my life. I simply wanna kill the daeomon inside me. We are all humans and wee need live in peace and have respect for each other. People who cant understand this simple fact deserve the worst possible.
My confession lettter is in Ashok Nagar Police Station, Bangalore. Once again Ill be going there to apologize personally.
@Nader bro...plzz PM me ur no. so that I can personallly apologize. Same applies to everyone with whom I have misbehaved.
Finally I request Mod to permanently delete Acid Dreamz id coz its features are disabled but able to log in. Acid Dreamz is dead. |
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nomoreacidreamz
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Posted : Oct 25, 2010 09:06
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@ Sandy/White Wizard ...yes I do deserve however u want to punish me. I am ready to take ur punishment face to face....once again i m sorry for writing all fake stuff..already all worst possible has happened and only worst possible thing is my death..I agree that I even deserve that... |
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Wicked sound System
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Posted : Oct 25, 2010 09:17
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i want you , not any kind of appology , its too late for this drama now . start paking ur bags .
 ZIK(ep) Freak on a Leash Out now !
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cosmichead
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Posted : Oct 25, 2010 09:50
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Good to know you have finally realized the problem.Almighty be with you. But I really wonder if you really were flipped. I am sure you would have carried on with your threats and bust stories if you were not found in bangalore and actually made to realize that you could be vulnerable by few of our brothers. See the world is small. I know about your story even if I am not in Bangalore. So think before you act my friend. What have you gained? I strongly suggest you a Shamanic Healing. Works better than anything else. Browse for healing events in Nepal if Amazon seems too far. Wish you a speedy recovery.
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energy spliff
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Posted : Oct 25, 2010 10:12
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Orbital
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Posted : Oct 25, 2010 10:16
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Nah - the writing style is unmistakingly his! So what did you write in your apology letter?
'The meek aint gonna inherit shit'
“I don’t want to be part of your revolution if I can’t dance.” – Emma Goldman |
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Posted : Oct 25, 2010 10:21
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the whole vibe in this indian section is, pathetic, even i observed myself, talking bullshit,a total transformation is required, interms of attitude towards your brothers/sisters, even tho the indian metality is " dont give a fuk,i"ll say what i want to say" most of the time the person says complete opposite of what he wants to say, and he isnt even aware of it, till much later, i think this mentality in itself is borderline psychotik.people just dont want to stop, they just want to call each other names, degrade the other guy, once in while combine a few intellegent words to make some sense, but most of the time, the people dont speak with inner calm or peace, i am not saying i have that, and i'm not saying thats the way it should be(for even diamonds have impurities), all i'm saying is if you want to look for dirt, look within, you will find all u need inside.and a more caring, broherly approach should be taken towards your fellow indians, or fellow human beings.i dont expect things to change, and i will be lying when i say, it does not affect me, it does affect me, i am influenced by these energies around me, and these enrgies is you, what you write, what you generate, condense into words,and that energy is what has to be purified in essense,when one is conciously doing what is right. and conciously rejecting what is wrong. i hope for hope
peace
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Orbital
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Posted : Oct 25, 2010 10:30
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2 more things I would recommend for you Nomoreacid whatever
6. Stay away from Isratrance
7. and stay from trance
May the force be with you
'The meek aint gonna inherit shit'
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Cosmic Tandav
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Posted : Oct 25, 2010 10:30
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nomoreacidreamz
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Posted : Oct 25, 2010 10:35
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@ full on...u said correctly"You couldn't be more ridiculous. Grown up, get a life, get over it.
I gave you a chance even after all the shit and threats you posted here. Now you're banned forever.
Respect!"
@ full on...yes, you were so very correct, am getting my life and Acid Dreamz is dead..instead of banning please delete that id itself from the server...evereone here has the right to punish me in the worst possible ways coz of the acts I did in my flipped out state of my mind. Karma has already showed up and I have lost everything but still everyone has right to punish me in any possible way...thats all I can say...Its the apolgy to u and everyone peace loving person from the bottom of my heart..i have lost my job..my confession later is in the police station...in case someone wants me to put me behind bars I do deserve that also....infact I was thinking of commiting suicice but tha also again is the daemon taking over my mind..Illl fight with this daemon..Instead of suicide, i wanna devote my life in helping any other person i ever come across having the same state of mind once, I m given a chance to recover. Its a promise to myself which I have made after the feeling of guilt killing me..to be honest, when I was taken to the police station, cops said thats its mental case, so instead of police station I need mental case n asked everyone to put me in Mental Asylum...fortunately, once of them turned out be a Mind Counsellor and he took the resposiblty to change up...the things he told me, I followed and already I woke up with totally different state of mind...he has also told that he will to his best n speak to my boss to get back my job...althogh he hasnt promised that because i have already faced the Karma and losing job is one of it...instead ill do wotever possible and help others who are mentally disturbed o handicapped or need help..this is my own self realization...maybe the prayers coming out of heart for me from others can again work as Karma and help me in recovering the damages i hv done to myself by harming others....I had lost lost interest in the matterlistic life for music n now i m out of that also..Illjust devote my my live in helping others.
PS: to everyoneone whom i hv hurt, please PM me ur no. numbers so that I can personally apologize to each n every person.....its upto them if they accept my apology and I m ready for any kind of punishment from them, simply because I deserve it. Its better that they punishe me now itself rather than keeping hared in their heart. In the end I would say that my counsellor is the most respectable person on earth for me and now I now will do wotever he wants...I was on phone for a long time with him and in return he only wants me to help others...thats it..i have no words to exprss my gratitude for people whom i threatned most and still they have forgiven me n now helping me...they are simply Angels on Earth for me...infact after 81 K loss also, after the gig i had no depression because everyone returned happily but someone took adavtage of it and I got convinced that I was cheated..now if someone who is not ready to forgive me, punches on my face, i show my other face n ask to give me more...its simply Self Realization which happened due to my counsellor...incase I wud have been behind bars, this self realization wud not have happened and i wud have ended up becoming a real criminal in future. but the way he made me self realize, now helping others is the only motto of my life....now if anyone beats me, or harm in any way, I will not react at all, coz i deserve that!!!
peace, love, respect for each other, harmony among people following different religions n worshipping the same God with different names is all that I believe now onwards.. |
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exotic
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Posted : Oct 25, 2010 10:36
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On 2010-10-25 10:30, Orbital wrote:
6. Stay away from Isratrance
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+1 This will help. At least for one week do not think about this site. You will have serious withdrawal symptoms but if you do this, your battle is half won.
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nomoreacidreamz
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Posted : Oct 25, 2010 10:36
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On 2010-10-25 09:17, Wicked sound System wrote:
i want you , not any kind of appology , its too late for this drama now . start paking ur bags .
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yes bro, i do deserve that.. |
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nomoreacidreamz
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Posted : Oct 25, 2010 10:43
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On 2010-10-25 09:50, cosmichead wrote:
Good to know you have finally realized the problem.Almighty be with you. But I really wonder if you really were flipped. I am sure you would have carried on with your threats and bust stories if you were not found in bangalore and actually made to realize that you could be vulnerable by few of our brothers. See the world is small. I know about your story even if I am not in Bangalore. So think before you act my friend. What have you gained? I strongly suggest you a Shamanic Healing. Works better than anything else. Browse for healing events in Nepal if Amazon seems too far. Wish you a speedy recovery.
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In fact in police station also i was not accepting initially, but my counsellor did something to me n instantly i accepted everything...immediately they took all the charges back n now he is like a shamic healor itself...i just spoke to him for 1 hr on phone n told him all my feelings and he told me really nice things...this life is very short so rather than harming others, its better to spread love and harmony..n big thank to u for wishing me recovery....i owe u as well.. |
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nomoreacidreamz
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Posted : Oct 25, 2010 10:49
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On 2010-10-25 10:30, Orbital wrote:
2 more things I would recommend for you Nomoreacid whatever
6. Stay away from Isratrance
7. and stay from trance
May the force be with you
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sure I have already taken these decisions...once evreyone comes to know my self realizaton, i wont come to Isra at al...yesterday i was bigtime invited for that party organized by the people whom i threated but i didnt go at all, coz i dont deserve to listen to Trance unless I m healed completely... |
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nomoreacidreamz
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Posted : Oct 25, 2010 10:50
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On 2010-10-25 10:12, energy spliff wrote:
fake!
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if u still think that boro, u can contact all organizers of bangalore n especially who is healing me. |
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